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Tarek El Moussa attends Discovery’s “Serengeti” premiere at Wallis Annenberg Center for the Performing Arts on July 23, 2019 in Beverly Hills, California

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Tarek El Moussais revealing the most personal details of his life in a way he never has before.

From crawling towards hospital doors in excruciating pain to reliving the end of his marriage withChristina Hall, El Moussa opens up (and spares no details) throughout the tell-all’s 12 chapters.

Keep reading for the most shocking bombshells El Moussa shares in his new book, released on Feb. 6.

Flip Your Life by Tarek El Moussa

What Really Happened During the 2016 Gun Incident

Nearly seven years after his split from his ex-wife and formerFlip or Flopcostar, Christina Hall,El Moussa finally tells his perspectiveof thehighly publicized incidentthat ultimatelyled to their splitin Dec. 2016.

Not knowing what state her husband was in, Hall called the police who quickly tracked El Moussa down in their search for a “possibly suicidal male.” InFlip Your Life,Tarek recalls being in disbelief about the moments that followed once the police found him.

“For the next several hours, I sat on a cooler on my driveway, handcuffed. That was the very last time we were together as a family: with Christina walking down the driveway, crying, and me sitting there in handcuffs, asking myself,What in the world is going on?”

Looking back, he writes that he understands why Christina thought he might hurt himself. He admits, “my mental health was as bad as it had ever been. But ending my life was just something I wouldn’t have done.”

As seen on HGTV’s Flip or Flop, Tarek and Christina El Moussa install back-splash tiles in the kitchen of a home that they are renovating. © 2015, HGTV/Scripps Networks, L.L.C. All Rights Reserved Commissioned photographer

He Spent Two Months in a Halfway House

“As I later learned,” he writes, “quitting testosterone cold turkey creates havoc with your hormones. The biochemical shock made my emotional upset much, much worse. Without really understanding what was happening, I was experiencing the biggest emotional trauma of my life, and I needed professional help.”

Tarek El Moussa poses exclusively for PEOPLE.Heidi Gutman-Guillaume

Tarek El Moussa

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He Was Once Arrested and Charged with Attempted Murder

Even longtime fans wouldn’t have guessed that El Moussa was once charged with attempted murder after being involved in a gang fight when he was a teen. He spent a short amount of time in a juvenile detention center after he was arrested.

El Moussa told PEOPLE that the harrowing event was a turning point for him: “I’ll never forget. I was terrified when I was there, because the charges I had were really bad charges, and I didn’t know if I was going to be there for days or years.”

In the book, he reveals he grew up in a “rough neighborhood” in Los Angeles County where he claims some of his friends were involved in gangs. At the end of his sophomore year, he was dragged into a fight that little would change everything for him.

“During the free-for-all, an older guy—maybe nineteen or twenty—stepped toward me and swung his bat. I tried to jump out of the way, but the bat connected, hard—hard enough to break my ribs. As a reaction, I dropped my arm and knocked the bat out of his hands. I grabbed the bat and hit him in the head. He dropped to the pavement and went unconscious.”

In the aftermath of the event, he remembers “seeing bodies everywhere” when a new group of rivals started coming at him. Luckily, the police arrived just then and broke up the altercation. Although he was arrested for being involved in the fight, he writes that the police determined he acted in self defense. He explains, because he was a juvenile, the records were sealed.

El Moussa says the fight was a blessing in disguise.

“I was sitting in the back of a police car, in handcuffs, charged with assault and battery, aggravated assault, attempted murder, and assault with a deadly weapon. Today I’m convinced that the police arrived at exactly the right moment. If I hadn’t been arrested, I would have been killed.”

Tarek El Moussa following his second back injury in 2018.Tarek El Moussa/Instagram

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Tarek El Moussa/Instagram

A Painful Back Injury Led Him to Crawl to the Hospital Doors

He recalls being on one of the last holes of the course when he felt a “spasm” in his back that led to “continuous pain.” While he admits that it probably would have been wise to stop playing the game right then and there, he pushed himself to keep going.

His friends helped him into the golf cart and got him to his car. He drove himself to the nearest hospital, but writes, “when I pulled up in front of the emergency room, opened my car door, and tried to get out, I dropped to the pavement. I started crawling to the door. Nurses came running. All I could say was, ‘Please help me.’”

El Moussa after he lost 60 pounds from being on painkillers.Tarek El Moussa/ Instagram

Tarek El Moussa

Tarek El Moussa/ Instagram

His Recovery Had Him ‘High as a Kite’ on Painkillers

“On a typical day, I would swallow eight or ten painkillers just to get through the day. Between the Vicodin and the Dilaudid and the morphine, I was as high as a kite all day long,” he admits.

During this time, El Moussa also says he was on a “sick man diet” that caused him to lose 60 pounds. Feeling worse than ever, he decided to get back surgery to hopefully resolve the issue for good. His recovery after the procedure led to more painkillers and bedrest while his then-wife, Hall had to manage the entire household. He recalls feeling lonely and depressed over the course of six weeks while he recovered in their downstairs bedroom.

“When I finished my walk, 90 percent of my pain was gone, which I’m convinced was the result of all that movement,” he writes. “And that was the very first step of my recovery. I once again had hope that through hard work, I would be able to get my life back.”

Read Tarek El Moussa’s full story inFlip Your Life: How to Find Opportunity in Distress—in Real Estate, Business, and Life, out now.

source: people.com