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Emile Weaver looks at an exhibit during her trial in Muskingum County Common Pleas Court in Zanesville, Ohio, Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Weaver, 25, the former student at Muskingum University in Ohio, toldElle.comfrom prison the crime wasn’t premeditated, and she believes her punishment was excessive.

Emile Weaver.Muskingum County Sheriff’s Office

Emile Weaver, a 20-year-old former sorority girl at Muskingum University, allegedly put her newborn girl in a bag, killing her, and then put the corpse in a trash can outside a sorority house

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In the interview, Weaver said she concealed her pregnancy, and tricked herself into thinking the birth would never happen. Even as she was delivering the child, she said she was in a state of shock.

Weaver told Elle.com — in an interview conducted in late 2018 — it wasn’t until she went shopping for a burial outfit that Addison’s death became real to her. She said at that moment, she felt “like a monster.”

According to the Elle.com article, “Emile believes she should be punished, but considers her sentence extreme.” She is apparently working on an appeal.

source: people.com